I am back on California soil again and happily reunited with the family.
Leaving this wonderful adventure of a lifetime year I had in Madrid/Europe has been difficult. I’ve been experiencing a variety of strong emotions and a lot of it has to do with the sadness that comes with closing a beautiful chapter of life and moving on to the next one. The responsibilities and existential angst of adulthood have been knocking on my door and I feel like I have been questioning every move I make or want to make in life. “Is this what I really want to do?” “Will this make me happy?”
Especially coming off this high of doing something so life-changing and challenging abroad, I find myself asking “What now?” And trying to match that level of newness and excitement that I experienced abroad to my life now has been a detriment to my mental health. What I do next will not be the same and that is fine. It doesn’t mean it will be any less meaningful for my self-development. I am now faced with a blank slate. Time to start over again and build up my life here in SoCal.
I will say that the greatest reassurance during this time of change and transition has been my family and friends. Knowing that I have them to lean on and support me no matter what makes me exhale a sigh of relief and thank God for their presence in my life.
Another thing that has been helpful is remembering to appreciate the journey—the surprises, the stepping stones, and beautiful moments along the way. The rush that we feel to “get there” and achieve our goals is a trick. Life is not a race and sometimes a miracle comes along that re-directs our path in life to an unexpected place, BUT we have to stay open to see it for what it is and receive it.
Saying goodbye in life is hard. Cry your tears, feel your sadness, but remember that there is abundance and good things coming for you around the next corner. We just have to keep moving forward.
Sending you lots of love and I hope that you find peace on your journey!