Happy New Year! I just finished my first full week at my first full-time job. Ufff…I am tired. Being a student-athlete in college required a lot of energy, but being a full-time worker requires a certain kind of stamina, a steady mental focus that I haven’t accessed in a while it seems.
Since coming home from Spain, I haven’t felt challenged or intellectually stimulated…but my first day on the job I knew that I was stepping into something special, something that would require every essence of my being and force me to flex my critical thinking muscles again. As much as I have wanted to avoid and delay committing to something “serious” again since graduating college…a part of me has missed the demand of having all pistons firing. I will say also that stepping into full-time work has quelled my restlessness and existential angst…I feel like I am moving forward on a path I am passionate about…no I don’t know where this will lead and I for sure don’t have all the answers but I feel like I can exhale now…ahhhhhh.
Adjusting: After my first day of work my head was throbbing. I’m not one to normally get headaches, but the amount of new information I was and am still absorbing is enormous. All the legal jargon and acronyms for everything is equivalent to learning a new language. Es increíble! Thankfully the headache has passed, but there is definitely a learning curve period when embarking on anything new in life. Patience and taking things one baby step at a time has helped me. Step by step and stay in the moment.
Sense of humor: The nature of my work is intense. We work on juvenile dependency cases, which means we advocate for children who have been abused and/or neglected and are in protective custody as a result. Reading about these cases and going on visits to check in with the children is heart-opening…there is a rawness and tenderness to it. I couldn’t imagine myself doing anything else at the moment though. This is my dream job…what I’ve been praying for and finally I get to step up and do it. I feel so freaking lucky and over the moon happy that this day has come. Given the emotional nature of the job, maintaining a sense of humor is so crucial. Something that surprised me was the normalcy of jokes and cussing in this field. A couple of my co-workers explained to me that its normal because the work can be really heavy so the jokes are like a coping mechanism to keep things light in a dark situation.
Awesome co-workers: It makes such a difference when you enjoy the company of your co-workers. Our work is independent, but everyone seems to have each other’s back and get along. As my boss says, we are one happy dysfunctional family.
A powerful outfit: I love love love getting to dress up for work. Seriously it gives me so much joy! Wearing a pant suit does wonders for your confidence. If you need a little boost, dress up more because feeling capable and badass seems to follow a good outfit.
Charms: My brother gave me a beautiful Japanese charm for Christmas that I keep around my work bag. It is said to bring good health and offer protection. Just glancing at it makes me feel anchored and cared for. I also decorated my desk area with post cards and paintings that I’ve collected when I was living abroad. Its a very colorful collage and it makes me so happy because it reminds me of all the cool experiences I’ve had and that there is so much to be excited for in life.
The little girl: I may be 23 years old, but I’ve always felt inside that I’m still that 13 year old girl with big dreams and a flaming curiosity for all things life. No matter what happens and no matter how many adult things and milestones I will take on, I want to keep my spark and freshness for life. To stay optimistic and true to myself. I remember imagining what I would be like when I was in my 20s and thinking that that time was so far away and its crazy to me that I’m living it now. Every choice I make to this day takes me back to that little girl…I wonder if this decision would make her proud? My own moral compass and if I listen, I am guided exactly where I need to go.
I hope 2020 brings you an abundance of blessings and beautiful moments! Salud!
P.S. Here are some precious moments with some of my favorite people. Quality time with the loved ones is my kind of treasure…ain’t nothing sweeter in life, I can guarantee it 😉